Robin and I had a soul searching chat on our long morning walk today. A major thought of contention is how each of us views retirement. Honesty and openness this morning proved to be more valuable than just mere words. For years she has taken care of children, cared for patients, and catered to the wishes and desires of my carousel of ideas. Her idea of retirement, was to rest from this whirlwind of motion. Relax, read, allow her mind not to think much about anything. A sedate, carefree lifestyle would fill her cup admirably. Therein lies the dilemma. As for me, I believe the soul should always stand ajar, ready to welcome the ecstatic experience. Be constantly on the lookout for the ecstatic experience; what excites us or moves us to tears, what makes the blood rush to our head, our hearts skip a beat, our knees shaky and our souls sigh. We shared our innermost thoughts and agreed to disagree on our concept of retirement. And as always, we shall again compromise. I believe there are two kinds of people – those that live with the threat of change and those that hope it will happen. I am making a valiant attempt to understand her desire to “sit this one out”, as she too is understanding my constant search for the ecstatic experience.